Pinky Promise

My academic supervisor spotted the plagiarism.

I was twenty-eight.

Young enough to believe I was smarter than everyone in the room.
Old enough to know better.

When he rejected one of my papers, my ego couldn’t take it.

So I tried to trick him.

A week later I submitted another paper, pretending it was entirely my work.

It wasn’t.

He didn’t reply.

A week passed.
My arrogance was still intact.
I followed up.

His reply came a few days later.

He had spotted the plagiarism.

But instead of reporting it to the university, he gave me a choice.

Explain myself, or withdraw the paper.

If I withdrew it, he promised the matter would go no further.

He didn’t believe in punitive systems.

Embarrassment flooded in.

I withdrew the paper.

Then I withdrew from the course.

My pride preferred exile to explanation.

And I never told anyone.

Not my lover.
Not my mother.
Not even my best friend.

But that day I made a promise to myself.

Never again.

A pinky promise.

Fourteen years later I had to revisit that moment.

During the process of being admitted as a lawyer in Victoria, I had to disclose any past misconduct — recorded or not.

So I wrote it down.

A translator read it.
A lawyer read it.
Two referees read it.

All of them, in different ways, asked the same question:

Did they still trust me?

I won’t say reliving the embarrassment felt good.

But at least now the story sits where it belongs.

In the past.